You know that feeling, that you are missing out on things? Things you loved to do and you don’t know when you are going to do them again. For me at the moment those are playing hockey and acting. Nice things have taken their place; I am very busy with my studies, but those sweet memories, that enthusiastic feeling. I miss that.
Feelings are strange things. They can totally control you. When singing or hearing a beautiful song, getting lost in a certain feeling. Sometimes you have a feeling and you don’t know how to define that feeling. Is it a good or a bad feeling? Can we rely on our feelings? Are they true? Or should we use our minds more? And put the feelings aside.
Feelings raise a lot of questions, especially a gut feeling. What is a gut feeling anyway? I don’t even know if I ever very well experienced one. And when it is there, do you need to follow that feeling? According to each and every situation, the feeling could be right or wrong.
And a following thought obviously will be: what is right or wrong? I hope I can use my feelings one day to help me discover that. Until now sometimes my feelings were true and I used my mind too much. If I had really really felt what I am feeling, I don’t know if things would or would have improved, or turned out better than they are now.
It is good to think about those feelings, but also not too much. Perhaps we should just let things come just as they are, let the feelings be there and keep looking ahead. And that feels much nicer at the moment!
